My 31st Valentine’s Day

img_0270Sometimes it’s hard to believe how old we can get and realize we haven’t done all the things we have done in our life the right way. How did I get to be 31 years old and still feel like I make the same wrong decisions and bad choices? Wouldn’t it be great to reflect on your life and think, Wow, I’ve done an amazing job at life?

Maybe you do think that way. I see people in real life and many on social media who seem perfectly content with their choices and decisions.

But it’s okay to feel like you’ve failed. It’s okay to feel a need to start over. To feel like you haven’t done it the right way. I think that’s a sign of humility. You’ve realized that you could have done some things better and maybe it’s time for a change in some areas.

Earlier today I was having a conversation with my dad about negativity and being mean. It has become very apparent to me how mean I am. I think it’s mostly from my extremely high expectations not being met, mostly from myself. I just feel like I could have and should have done a better job at my life. I don’t feel like I’ve lived my own life the right way.

But if I keep thinking about it that way, I will stay angry about it. And we want to stop that.

So, I can start today not as if I’ve fallen into a trap of being mean about my life but changing the way I live to be nicer.

So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. 2 Corinthians 4:16

I don’t want to live my live with such a hard heart. I can start over today. You can too. We can soften our hearts to ourselves and to everyone else we encounter. We can soften our hearts to our expectations and our circumstances.

I hope you feel the freedom to start fresh this week, as if you haven’t yet made a bad choice at all in your life.

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