What if I put in the amount of energy that I use now searching for ways to make money, into praying to God to provide for my family what we need?
What if every time a bill was looking me in the face, I turned to God, instead of looking for another job?
Don’t get me wrong, it is important to be earnest with regard to our responsibility to our family.
But there is a line and I think that I have crossed it.
I seriously felt that my hard work was proving that I trusted God in providing for my family. While the money does provide, there is something lacking in the pure fact that I didn’t flat out trust God to provide. I only saw money as the provider, not God as the provider.
He will provide the income. He will provide the shelter. He will provide the health. He will provide the love.
I believe that we should be diligent searchers for work and income but there is truly a limit.
I felt this way today as I was going over my family’s budget. There just isn’t enough money to go around. I’m sure many of you feel this way. Whether you are preparing for retirement, a young student in college or a mother/father with little children to take care of; it is hard to find “enough” money.
I quickly turned to Craigslist and Indeed to find a quick fix to this money problem that I had.
Sure enough, I found an event gig for an event assistant this weekend that paid $65 cash at the end of the five hour shift.
The answer was right in front of me! And yet it wasn’t quite the answer I expected.
The answer was to not do it.
The answer was to wait, to rest, to recharge, to trust.
Trust that God would provide even if I didn’t scramble to take this Craigslist gig that was right in front of my face.
It’s hard to turn away from something that feels like it will answer the problem.
(Side note, I wrote this possibly over a year ago. I’m still thankful that I started to end the constant scramble to find extra money and to put more of my energy into trusting God in his provision for me)
Psalm 88:13 But I, O Lord, cry to you; in the morning my prayer comes before you.